I think that a large part of me still thinks that I'll not make it, but the other half that lives in my subconscious knows that I will. It's just that, since the physical reality hasn't hit yet, or maybe I just think that I'm a little less capable than I really am. I think it's a lot about how I'm going to get there rather than when I'm going to get there, because the same journey for different people takes different times. It just takes a lot of different paths to really evolve and rise up to the occasion that you're meant to. For some, it might take five years, ten years, even one year sometimes.
I've spoken about this a lot before: it doesn't just matter that you get there, but it also matters how you get there. I won't necessarily say that the lesser time is the better, because I think the more time you spend on something, the better you get. I'm a firm believer of that, so I know that I want to be the greatest and that there's no doubt that I will be. It's just whether the course that I'm taking right now is the right one. I don't know yet, and I'll probably never know because there are so many different things I could be doing right now, but I choose to do a certain set of things: build, speak to people, iterate on product, because I think that's what I'm really about.
From the few years that I've spent building, I think that this is something that I want to be able to do without ever having a sense of financial burden. I don't have it right now because a lot of it, all of it, is sponsored by my family, but at some point, you just have to stop taking from them and giving to them. Now, I've been fortunate enough to do a couple of gigs over the summer and earn a good sum to be able to give back a little, a lot less than I would want to. Eventually, my goal would be to just give them everything that I get, because in the end, I truly believe that's a zero-sum game. Who you give to or what you give doesn't matter, as long as you give back. There's definitely a lot more to where that is coming from. I feel I have been so blessed with my family, my friends, my extended family, who are all extremely financially and otherwise wealthy, so I don't get to witness a lot of the other world problems that people might have. I'm never thinking about how the rent is going to be due next month, or thinking about how I'm going to pay my tuition bills or any other bill. I live so comfortably in Goa that I can't attribute this to anyone else but my family.
So, yeah, giving back: I think that is very important to give back because you're nothing without the people that build you, and in my instance, that would be my family and my friends. I want to get to the point where I am financially, mentally, and physically always available to give my family anything they want, like a good vacation or just some quality time with them, or anything. Think of anything, and the same extends to my friends.
I've realized that I've been very lucky with my personal relationships with people. I've definitely had ups and downs, but I think I find myself always finding my people, and that's what college is really about. I would always, always encourage people to go to college, especially a college with a lot of people, because that's where you get to experiment, see how other people live, where they come from, and just think about a lot of different perspectives. I think that's very important for the overall development of an individual.
A very funny thing happened with me recently. I was on a call with a guy from the Monad Foundation, which is like a cryptocurrency platform, which is sort of all for decentralizing stuff. I somehow always seem to find that everything I do traces back to me in both good and bad ways, but this one's definitely good. It was about how they're gonna sponsor certain founders, and they're gonna pay them stipend to sort of build something and eventually deploy it on the Monad ecosystem, which is quite cool because it's like a very good network plus cost efficiency compared to other exchanges like Tether or Ethereum or anything like that. I think that was a very cool opportunity, so I'm definitely going to sort of look a lot more into that. I have a call lined up with him next week as well, and let's see where that partnership goes.
That's what I mean: the work you do always comes back to you. In this case, it was a project, but in other cases it can be something good you did to someone at a cafe or how you treated someone else. Maybe they turned out to be helpful. Today at a restaurant, I met this guy. He was serving me. His name is Newton, and he realized I had a cold. Just because I treated him well the last time I met him, he served me with hot water every time I asked for it. That was super sweet because the restaurant was quite busy. I could see it, and this guy was working his ass off to feed someone who he didn't even know. I think it came back to me probably because of some good karma, and I am positive that it's gonna come back to him because he helped a guy out who was kind of sick.
That's what it's all about: taking and then giving back, preferably more than you take, because I think that's what makes you a good person. It's always a zero-sum game, if not positive. You understand it? I don't know what this blog is really about. I just thought I'd write something, and this is where it came to, so might as well be it. Thanks. I'll see you in the next one.